Still here, but not active
A big howdy to those followers that are still around and reading things. Yeah, I'm still alive and doing great, but I just have zero reason to be here. I see nothing changed for the better on this site and it's still the same ugly, confusing mess they turned it into. I do have a Tumblr accout of which I'm way more active, but not too much as of late. I guess I found better things to do with my time and life than post stuff. I've been trying to survive since Covid took out the job industry I'm in. I've been sad, mad, starving, just everything. I've been selling tons of stuff on ebay also. It's all collectables and includes comic books, Disney, vintage toys, and non-sports trading cards. If you want to look me up there, my user name is tblackfox. At the time of this posting I have nothing listed for sale there, but do give me a follow. Things will be posted soon.
I'm also leaving the industry I have worked in for the last fifteen years. The business might not recover for a long time, if ever, so I have to think of my own needs and move on. I got myself a new job, one that's going to actually work me and pay me every week. No more sitting around waiting and hoping for a phone call to get me to work. Sure, it's a dream job to make 1200 a pay check, but when you don't work for six weeks after that check, you really didn't make all that much money when you break it down. So, time to move on. My bff said I have a toxic relationship with that job and he's right. I will truly miss my friends and the everything else about the job, but I won't miss not having any money and who knows? Maybe I'll go back someday. I could always ask if I can make this current job seasonal. I'd be off January to May working in my industry, but back at the new place from May until December. That might work. Not sure if they'll do that, but I'll have to ask down the line if something like that is possible.
Anyway, that's really about it. Mundane things to post about are my house is deep cleaned and I'm staying on top of my chores better, I got bondo to repair some lawn statues, I have five cats now instead of three, and I've been on a big mission to get rid of tons of my stuff be it by donation, gifts, trash, or ebay.
Hope y'all are doing great! I might post here and there on here, but don't expect too much. Feel free to follow me on Tumblr...I'm BadCowboy69 and don't forget tblackfox on Ebay. I also have Discord at TracyBlackfox#4363 if you want to drop me a line. I'd love to hear from you!!!
Still alive, just not here
I can honestly say from the very bottom of my heart how much I fucking HATE what this site has become. It's confusing and stupid and ugly and I find no joy in coming here anymore. I pop in from time to time, but since it's such a shit storm and confusing, I hastily leave. I do feel bad because I miss out on tons of great works to be sure. I miss all my followers and I miss faving things and whatever. However, this site can eat my ass. Totally and completely. As I've probably mentioned before, if you wanna find me and have a chat, you can find me on Tumblr. I'm still badcowboy69.
I guess the one thing that might have me pop back around here more often is if someone can take this dummy by their hand and teach me the ways this site has fallen to. That would be much appreciated really. Trust me, I've pondered many times about tearing my entire site down. No one comes around faving things anyway so that in itself tells me this shit site is dying anyway. I can't believe all the files that are gone off here from people I have liked or followed. Their stuff is literally gone and then I see their pages are too. Tumblr lost a lot of great people from their stupidity a while back as well. It's a shame when outlets like this can't leave things the hell alone and realize NO ONE wants their stupid changes. No one asked for them! Stupid...just stupid and lame. Oh well...love to y'all...followers, mutuals, etc....hope y'all are good at least and staying safe, happy and healthy.
DA can kiss my tush
Yeah I'm pretty much not here anymore. Eclipse sucks donkey dick. It's too confusing and too ugly and I honestly don't have the intelligence (or lack of) to sit and figure it out. I'm still around here and there, but not much. As much of a hell hole Tumblr can be, at least it's more organized there. If you want to find me there I'm under badcowboy69 like I am here. I'd love to have y'all join me there if you haven't already.
Miss y'all though and miss the fun and niceness this place used to be. It's a shame that the idiots that run this site thought it was a good idea to ass rape it with a sharp stick, but meh. Seems like lots of bad choices were made and are still being made by companies this year.
Feel free to drop me a comment or message here I WILL see it, just probably not in a timely manner. You want to find me on Tumblr, I'd love that, just let me know you're from here if you're name there is different. Peace!
Breaking the Silence at Last...
Then the universe decided to take a big hot steaming crap on my head.
Honestly, I really don't know where to begin. I guess it all happened at once or whatever that things seemed to blur into one another. I'll do my best and thanks for having the patience to sit through this and read. Anyway...it started small. July I got hit with a bad depression where it took all I had to even get out of bed. I spent my days sleeping and nothing more. If it wasn't for the fact I have cats to care for, I probably wouldn't have got out of bed at all. Fortunately, that cleared up and August came and brought with it shit. I smelled mildew and came to discover the entire cabinet under the sink was covered in it. Why? There's no leaks. I spent days cleaning it and bought some kind of solution to rid it, but in a week's time it'd come back. While I was battling that, ants decided to make my house their lair. Now, I'm not talking about the rando ant that would scurry across the floor. No. I'm talking about an entire colony. They were everywhere! I'm a very clean person so this was bugging me (no pun intended). They were on the sink, on the counter, in the cat bowls, in my bedroom, on the wall, on the bed! WTF As if that wasn't bad enough they were thinking it was great to bite me and the poor cats. That being said i had to take precautions on what I do as I don't wish to harm the cats with breathing in chemicals. I did what I could with natural solutions and for the most part they seemed to be working. Then more insects came to the party by way of fleas. My cats stay in the house. They don't go outside at all nor sit in open windows (I live in Florida and summer you don't open windows). I had to act fast as I didn't want an explosion of these pests not to mention my one kitty has bad allergies to flea bites. While I'm battling fleas my eldest cat takes a huge gross dump in front of the living room door. She's been acting odd as it is and that tears it that something is very wrong. I took her to the vet and $300 later find out she had a very high build up of bacteria in her tummy. She got some meds to take for a week and thankfully that cleared her up. At this point the ants are finally gone and the fleas were apparently on the run. I spent way way WAY too much money on all this crap, but still was in the black so to speak.
However, the universe wasn't having that. The dude that the community has to do landscaping hit my house with his riding lawnmower. I'm fine, the house is fine, he is fine...but ugh none the less. Now the fleas are wanting to come back and the mildew must have been lonely because that came back too. Things went dumb as the food stamp program I tried to get on thought it was great to give me $15 a month because I'm on unemployment. Whut? How does that work? I'm broke and getting unemployment, but yet I make too much money? At this pint I've been putting in applications just in case. I heard my regular job won't kick into gear until October so I knew I had to find something to help keep me above water. I get a seasonal gig with Spirit Halloween. I was thrilled because at least it's something and not too painfully far away. Pay is crap, but it's better than the nothing I'll be getting soon. Things seemed to be going good when my car said "Hey what about me??" On my way to my friend's house to help him with something, my transmission blew. The car was already floundering with no power steering, no horn or turn signals, and no air conditioning and if i idled too long it would overheat. Still, all this thing had to do was make it 'til January when I could afford to look at another car. I get the car home and had to make the call to junk it. At this point my mentality is shot as is my savings. I can't afford a car. Dad to the rescue. He said he'll take me to work or I could use his car. Surprise surprise, universe wasn't having that and now his car started shaking. He tried to fix it and it jumped gear and hit his house. It broke his waterline and knocked his ac out of the window. Anyway, he's ok. In fact, he's doing way better than I am. A good friend of mine took me out to find a used car, a 2014 Kia Rio, and after a long, exhausting day I got a decent car. And here we are....
There's oodles more I'm sure, but this was the huge comedy of errors that have become my life in just a few short months. Things are still going on and honestly went from dark to absolutely abysmal. The job I have pays shit and every other week and is no true help other than it being better than nothing. I'm still putting in applications and hoping something will stick. Holidays are coming so I'm sure stores are needing extra help. Nothing matters, though. All the savings I had to keep me ahead of the game are gone thanks to fleas, ants, mildew, and a dying car. I stopped my writing and drawing and I had a lot of fun projects in mind to share with y'all here, but I can't even hold a pencil and concentrate right now. My dad's ok. Things are working out great for him and I've done all I could. For me, I'm not that lucky. I've tried to get help with grants and other things to help aid with utilities at least to no avail. This is my last month of money I'm sure. In fact, probably my last month with electric and internet. I can't afford much else right now and have last month's bills as well as this to tend to and I don't even want to think about the months ahead. I'm doing my best, but I'm exhausted. I done cried out all my tears when my car broke. I'm putting my cats first and making sure my last few dollars go to getting food for them. I'm at my end and not sure what to do.
That's that. I figured I had to write and let y'all know what was going on with me and why I'm almost vanished. Trust me, I'm here. I see everything everyone does and posts, but I don't have the strength to comment like I would normally. Or post my own stuff for that matter. Hopefully things will improve, but it seems very, very bleak right now. Hopefully something will give already, but as it stands it's hopeless. If I do end up getting my electric and internet shut off, I'll find a way to communicate so no one worries much.
However, if you are able to help out or know anyplace I can seek out help, please let me know. My PayPal is RogerMKlotz@aol.com and anything sent my way will get repaid or at least paid forward to someone else in need soon as I get back on my feet. Thanks for listening and thanks ahead in case you decide to drop any help my way. Me and my kitties would appreciate it....and if nothing else, at least I can live in my car with ac for a little while.
I'm Still Alive
But this is me simply checking in. I'm always here and lurking and sometimes I'll make a comment or two, but mostly I'm trying to clear out the 400 something notices I have built up and go through my old emails which are over 1000 yikes! Hope everyone is doing great! And know even though I might not get on here to do things as much as I would like or used to, y'all are still in my thoughts!